I Am Sad

Just recently, we received news that some very great friends of ours - people that we have respected and emulated - are separating. We're taking the split road in the sense that we cannot judge and we cannot take sides. Thankfully, for me, I became friends with them both at the same time so my loyalty is where it should be: in limbo. I can see both sides of the tale and I advise where I'm allowed, and yes, I can really see both sides of their coin.

This upsets me for many reasons. The first is that this was one of those couples that I hoped Scott and I would be like....I'd met them when they were just as in love as I was (despite me not wanting to admit it). They were so loving, sweet, happy and exuberant. I remember thinking, upon first judgment, that I wanted to have what they had.

Coming from a family where my parents have a strong loving marriage, coming from a background where values were revered, I felt that for the first time in years I'd seen a marriage that might come close to that. So I am sad, mainly because they represented that for me. I suppose I felt all warm and fuzzy inside whenever we were around them.

They made me feel like a part of their family, they made me realize how important that love and respect on a familial level is.

Soooooo...

Scott: I don't say I love you enough but I love you more than I could ever put into words, and I'm a word whore which means I'm speechless.

Christy and Livia: I miss you so much and sometimes I really feel that I've left a part of me behind when I think of you both. I'd LOVE to drag you to a crazy deserted island somewhere! Not in a dirty way...

Mom and Dad: You've both given me an amazing base for my life and I could not ever really thank you for the lessons that you've taught, the strength that you've instilled and the honesty that you always give.

Jen: You rock. Plain and simple. You inspire me.

Di: I get it. I really get it. Your courage is incomparable.

Sara and TJ: No words except "I'm proud".

I love all of you, my friends and family. You know who you are. Sometimes I don't say it enough...sometimes I don't show it enough....and I suppose that is my lesson for this week.